Posted 21 February 2012 - 11:44 PM
I have a 5 year old daughter, the pregnancy was good, but I suffered afterwards I was in and out of the mental hospital after having her ( 4 different stays, from 5 days to 2 weeks in length). I cant spell the diagnosis but its worse then depression, I had a totally different life when that happened. I left her dad and got my head back on straight and did me right for a change. Then a friend of over 10 years came back into my life like a thunderstorm...we had lost touch but when he found me again there was no going back. We have been together and very happy for almost 3 years. My doc had told me that having another child was not a good idea because of the mental things that happened. We discussed it (doc, my honey and family) and decided to try. We tried for about a year to get pregnant, and then it happened...so excited but his sister in law found out she was pregnant the same weekend and she started all kinds of drama. But we rose above it. We found it was twins and had every feeling from happy to panic. To be honest I am in panic mode a lot. We moved in with my Mom to help her out and her to help us out when the girls come. My 5 year old is very excited about having sisters, her bio dad has two other daughters that are older then her. I quit my job because at 5 months into this pregnancy I was diagnosed with Ashma and my energy levels most of the time are very low. My job was very fast paced and stressful and it took to much out of me. And I feel as the days go by I am getting more exhausted, and I have pain in my pelvis when I walk which makes it hard to move around.The doc called it Pelvic Griddle pain...and with my belly growing inches every week its hard to do anything. we got moved in to my moms and the house is unorganized and messy. I feel horrible just laying in bed while the house work increases. My honey works and goes to school full time and he does as much as he can.
I feel overwhelmed and just need support from woman that have been through this stuff and not judge me...